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Saturday, June 04, 2005

All the time in the world

I was thinking about time today. This is the thought ... the "truth" that came to me:

I have relatively little time left in this life ... yet, I have all the time in the world.

Just as I was thinking ... Gee, I'd better do this or that while I can, creating a picture of physical and mental frenzy ... I stopped. I don't want to be so busy-busy that I forget to live. I've been there and done that.

Everyone knows that time is just as much subjective as it is objective. When you're a little kid the summer vacation seems like forever ... as does the school year. As you get older, time speeds up ... subjectively. I've often compared it to rewinding a VHS tape. As it starts to rewind, it takes its time ... whirr whirr whirr... but, the closer to the end, the faster it goes ... buh dh dh dh dh dh dh dh dh dh dh. I can't seem to write the sound of your tongue making buuuuudh-ing sounds on the roof of your mouth just behind your top teeth. Hey, it's how the tape sounds at the end. What can I say! Now I "get" why people leave their holiday decorations up. The holiday is going to come around practically in a minute.

I've used different methods to "slow down" time's passing. A big one is ... not rushing around crazily ... trying to get so many "important" things done. Being present. Being in the moment. Knowing that I have all the time in the world. Not easy to do in our fast-paced society. For me, a big one is reading, especially fiction. When I'm reading fiction, it's a mini vacation ... I'm "there" ... in that time frame and span. So if years pass in the book and I've been reading for an hour, well ... I feel like I'm collapsing time. Being present is excellent, but not always easy to do.

Think about hitting the snooze alarm and going back to sleep, dreaming an epic dream and then the alarm goes off again ... and it's only been four minutes ... objectively. Hmmmmmm.

Time. It's a thought and a paradox.

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